Well, I’ve finished my AAS degree at SMCC. I went out with a bang, feeling very confident, and now – two weeks later – I’m feeling all of that energy of anticipation and “get it done”ness crash hard. So, what else to do but rest and recoup?
Of course, this is one of those situations where the writer glosses over the intense feelings of insecurity, the panic-inducing thoughts of not being qualified enough, the doubt of whether or not anyone else even likes what is being created enough to pay for it…whoops. No, it isn’t. I can’t be alone in this. There must certainly be some kind of “syndrome” for graduates that rains on the parade for a bit after the report cards are received, and the accolades are doled out. Please feel free to share if you have felt even a little of this after you completed a big project, graduated from school – even after a big wedding. I could use some validation for this.
All shadow work aside, I am able to maintain a level of pride at the work that I did during my studies, and I am still very excited to find a way to create animation for the rest of my life. I have some pretty interesting ideas for music videos, and I am now free to set sail on the good ship “The Golden Pinecone”, and make my dream of Poppet coming to life a reality. Creating and being productive is what makes me feel fulfilled. My best professor encouraged me to stop calling it “anxiety”, and instead recognize that I have DRIVE. Feels much better to say it that way, so that’s exactly what I’m doing. I AM DRIVEN!
First thing on the “To Complete” list is a music video for my dear friend, Kurt Baker. I’ve been working on a lyric video for his song “New Direction”, and I’m pretty proud of how it’s coming out! I’ll share it here as soon as its released. Thanks for being here, see you next time!